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[29 Nov 2005|09:03pm]
[ mood | blah ]

...Sitting waiting wishing...Collapse )

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[16 Nov 2005|07:53pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Not updated in a while!

Not much been happening lately, been at school 5 days a week, been working 5 days a week and been using weekends to sleep really. I love December, its such a great month! It's all Christmassy n theres loads of nights out etc. So far my plans are:

Sun 11th - Night out with instore peoples
Thur 15th - Meal with school people
Wed 21st - School Christmas dance and night out after

I'm organising the meal for school people and also organising the meal for my other friends! Not got a date for the 2nd meal yet coz people keep changing when they can/cant make it so I've still got to plan that.

Got lots of presents to buy for people which I totally love doing. Not got any money just now until I get paid next week but I've got ideas for things for people.

Dad - Cd
Mum - Cd

Thats all I've got planned lol except I've got a few ideas for things to get Andrew (bf) but no idea what to get for other Andrew (brother).

Don't know what I want for Christmas from people. I want some me to you bears, a me to you slim diary and thats all I've chosen so far!!!

Been going out with Andrew for 6 months now! :) Had my driving test on 9th November n failed :( coz someone overtook me on the left n that automatically fails u :( Booked it again and it's booked for January but hopefully will get a cancellation date before that coz I really wana pass before Christmas! Think I might be going back to work at instore for some shifts near Christmas, but I'm not sure. I could really do with the extra money but I'll be working at least 6 days a week if I do that which I'm not too sure about.

Going for a bath and then going to bed coz I'm absolutely shattered and for once have no homework!!

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[16 Oct 2005|08:19pm]
I really don't think I've been this ill. EVER. Seriously =( On Friday morning I drank some milk and the date was that day so I reckon thats what started it but I duno. Anyways I ended up being really sick all day and all night (like I've never been so sick before) and then yesterday and today I've had spells of feeling ok and then really ill like I'm going to be sick again but I haven't been sick since Friday night =S It's not fun, I feel so shit and ended up crying coz I feel sorry for myself and I fucking hate being ill especially when its feeling sick coz u cant do much to feel better =(
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[12 Oct 2005|06:55pm]
[ mood | cold ]

Long time no update. Well I left le work and got a new job! Working in the nursery next to my house after school for 2 hours a night (but get paid for 3!) It's quite easy but really tiring, but I get to sleep all weekend coz I don't work weekends anymore =)

I've got the cold =( It's rubbish I hate being ill! Our oven is broken so I'm eating a chicken pizza out the 3 in 1 =) So yummy!

I'm really skint just now =( Why am I not rich?!

Really tired coz of school and work and just not getting enough sleep no matter how much I sleep.

Mum and dad going away on holiday soon which means a week of Andrew staying =) Think Stacey n the 2 Fiona's are comin up n gettin stoned one night (or 7!) He wants a key cut for my house haha, coz i finish work after him. I stayed at Andrew's on Friday night and then he stayed at mine on Saturday night =) I like waking up to cuddles!

Was meant to be going on holiday with a group of people from school but I don't think I'll go anymore for reasons I'd rather not mention.

Off to phone Andrew n then have a bath and sleep =)

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[22 Sep 2005|05:53pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Haven't updated in like forever! Not been doing much just working and school. I'm really tired all the time but I don't have school tomorrow =) I'm gona have a nice bath n do fake tan n go to bed once the decorator goes. Tomorrow I'm going to stay in bed and sleep =) Tomorrow night I'm going out for a meal with andrew, gary and gillian. Then I'm staying at andrews =) Haven't stayed at his in ages! On Saturday I'm not working so we are going to stay in bed all day n watch dvds =) Saturday night Fiona is comin round n I'm makin dinner for us which shud b fun coz ive not seen her in ages. Andrew n ppl r going out on Saturday night but I'm not bothered coz ive no money anyway. Decided I'm going to re-do my room in baby blue and white =) gona keep my 2 walls white n paint the 2 pink walls blue n then get blue/white accessories! I want a this phone

But I have no money for it =( It's really cold and I'm soooooooo tired. On Tuesday in my driving lesson I think I'm going to decide a date for my driving test. But I'm not telling anyone =P

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[15 Aug 2005|10:53am]
[ mood | angry ]

Angry.Angry.Angry.Collapse )

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[10 Aug 2005|11:10pm]
[ mood | tired ]

French = A
Modern studies = A
Art = B
English = C
Human bio = D

I'm soooo tired. Was out tonight with Andrew n it was so much fun =) We went for a car wash lol it was cool. Then we went up to this wee place with fields all round it n just sat there n sang n recorded it lol n then we danced on the road =) I'm all happy it was so good!

Think we are going on holiday in either September or October which should be fun, I love going away with him.

Going back to school next Thursday which is gona suck coz I like being off, but its also gona be good to see everyone again.

I hope I'm off work on Sunday so I can stay at Andrew's on Saturday night and if the weather is nice we are going for a picnic and to play tennis with Ross and Melissa on Sunday =)

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[07 Aug 2005|06:30pm]
[ mood | blah ]

I'm going out in an hour. But all I wana do really is sit and cry (even tho I have no reason to cry) and watch a film and eat chocolate cake.

Working 2moro at 9 till 1 and then hav the orthodontist at like 3 or 4 or something.
Exam results on Tuesday n then work from 2 till 6.30
No work on Wednesday =)
No work on Thursday =)
Work on Friday from 11.30 till 6.30

Just got a txt from Laura n her sister had her baby n its a girl =) How cute!!

Ended up arguing with Andrew the past couple of days which is shite coz I hate arguing and it makes me sad =( Ended up crying lots the past 2 days coz of it n thats y I feel all blah =(

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[02 Aug 2005|12:42pm]
[ mood | tired ]

I haven't updated in like soooo long!!

Up North in Killin with Andrew was amazing =D Like totally fantastic, we had so much fun =) I stayed at his on wednesday n thursday night after we came back and then I stayed with him last Saturday night. I like waking up next to him =)

Been working lots recently which is boring me now. Theres sum fun parts but meh.

I've spent like nearly £200 since I got paid on Thursday. I don't even know where its all gone =( I hate being such a money waster!!

Bought my prom dress =D It's soooo pretty! It's pink n shimmery n long n so so so pretty =D (yeh so the prom is like next June/July....)

Sat my driving theory test today and I passed =D Got 33 outa 35 for the multiple choice bit and 62 outa 75 for the hazard perception bit =)
Getting a double bed soon =D I'll actually never leave it hehe.

Might be going away on holiday in October with Andrew =D

Going shopping with my mum this afternoon so I can waste more money on things =P I might actually try n find things to take back so I can get some money!

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....drug dealin just to get by.... [16 Jul 2005|09:12pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Today I worked from 7am till 4pm. It was so tiring! Also it was too hot and I felt weird and then was sick =( But I didn't tell anyone =S

Tomorrow I'm going away with Andrew to Killin (up North) =D I'm sooooooooooooooooo excited!!! Been packing all night and I've just gotta get some stuff ready in the morning (straightners, make up etc) I bought stuff today so we can have a picnic half way there =) I'm soooooo excited!! Made some cds for the car tonight =) It's like a 3 hour drive but it'll be ok if we stop for a picnic =D

I think I'm getting a double bed! I'm so excited about it (how sad) but I'll actually love it so much if I get one!!

Going for a shower just now and then either going out or going to bed, depends if someone phones/txts me.

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[13 Jul 2005|07:58pm]
[ mood | exhausted ]

I'm actually so tired. Like SO SO tired. I've worked:

Fri - 12-6.30
Sat- 10-6.30

I'm working on Friday at 12-6.30 and Saturday 12-6.30 and then on Sunday Andrew and I go away on Holiday =D I'm so excited!!!! We are going to Killin (up in North of Scotland) for a few days just the two of us =D I can't wait it's gona b so good!

I got my car last Wednesday =D It's so cool I love drivin about =) Changed the date of my theory test from Friday 15th July to Tues 2nd August.

Was meant to b going up to Andrew's tonight but I'm too tired so I think I'm going to the Beanscene wi Shir coz she came back her holiday on Mon night/Tues morn and I haven't seen her yet.

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[20 Jun 2005|11:46pm]
[ mood | hyper ]

It's incredible how like 12 hours ago everything was fucked up and crappy. Now I'm like SO HYPER!!

Went out tonight with Nicol, Andrew, Fiona and Graeme. They all went out the car so Andrew and I could talk and he basically said we should go on a break and not see each other for 2 weeks and i was like um ok </3 But then we talked more and I was actually so gutted, I thought I was just going to like stop living or something. I couldn't even look at him I was so upset/hurt etc and when he hugged me I just stood all lifeless and he was like =( But then we went up to his and were talking about things and we were getting on better than we have in weeks. I got stuff off my chest that had been bothering me and vice versa. We sat outside mine in the car when he dropped me off and I was like ok look I'm so confused about this all so we talked and he admitted hes scared of committment and love and romantic things etc and we just chilled out and had a laugh but it was serious at the same time. We decided that this week we are going to spend time just us 2, no1 else and not bothering about making plans to see other people and do stuff with them coz we need time just the 2 of us and I've got a good feeling about it all =) We both want it to work (even though hes scared of committment) and I think I can change his whole fear of committment. Well maybe not change it but his longest relationship has been like 2 months and we've been together 6 weeks but I'm not used to short relationships and I think we can make it work for longer coz I've had a relationship that was nearly a year and a half and a relationship that was 4 months. So basically I'm all happy coz we both want it to work and I do think we can and if we do make it work then maybe he wont be so scared of committment and love and well I hope its gona b all good =) I'm alot happier now anywayz! Seeing him tomorrow night up at his which should be fun =)

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[20 Jun 2005|12:43pm]
[ mood | sad ]

I'm so sad =( I want to go back to Lanzarote n hide from everything here coz its not nice =( Last night Andrew said he didn't know if he wanted to be with me or not =( What? How can you not know that? He then said he needed time to think and talk to Graeme. Graeme? Graeme has nothing to do with our relationship! He told Melissa that he wants to talk to me face to face but not last night coz he thought he would "end up saying something he regrets" I asked him what I had done and he said nothing it's not my fault it's his fault. I don't understand it =( So I cried lots + I was even crying at the bus stop. So I went on the bus n went to Melissa's n Nina was there n we talked n then later we went out with Ross+Budgie drivin about. Budgie has a new car n omg its so fuckin awesome! We were goin so fast n its so loud n wow it cheered me up lots. I'm still so confused about Andrew tho =( He told me he thought he could love me, so whats happening? =(

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